The Nameless Poems

Blood & Silver

Pilot first chapter for a small novella.

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The Nameless Poems

A set of 5 poems I jotted down in moments of inspiration. They lack titles. Yet, calling them "Nameless Poems" I suppose is a contradiction in that regard. Nonetheless:

[Written: 6/14/2022]
He who stands among the flames
Is naught but a poet of ashes.
Gazing past the smoke and heat
To find the answers he seeks.
Blazing coals fill his burning eyes
As soot fills his lungs.
Coughing the words of the truth he finds
Across the sea of flicking tongues.
Now blind and mute and skin maroon as he claws to the other side.
He knows the truth as he sits
casting his thoughts like embers
To the wind the fuels the fire he dares to tread.
He learned the truth and he spoke it too. But, now he's surely dead.

[Written: 6/11/2022]
Save me...
From this harrowing beast of gray skinned solace.
Adorned with nightly jeweled vacant eyes.
Fashioned by a mind unfit to fetter its final thoughts.
Left adrift by the floating fascination of nothingness.
Like a tapestry of black thread. Woven and unwound.

[Written: 6/10/2022]
It is with frozen heart
Still and somber.
Within the pitch
I begin to conjure.
All of which
I've beheld with eyes.
A catalyst of truth
Filled with lies.
It is all I can offer
As I know no more.
Than the wickedest tricks
I've grown to adore.

[Written: 6/06/2022]
I have lost too much of nothing, too deserve anything at all.
I want to scream at the wind.
Hoping that is will carry my voice across the ocean.
Maybe then, I'd be heard. Maybe then, I'd be seen.

[Written: 6/09/2022]
Fox.
Beneath the roots of trees.
Dance.
Atop the fallen leaves.
Look.
Around, what do you see?
Greet.
The eyes staring at me.
Alone.
Amidst a sea of men.
Torn.
Between sainthood and sin.
Glad.
To not be one of them.
Drowning.
Now, I'll count to 10.
Breath.
The water and let it in.
Fill.
The lungs with wine and gin.

Fox.

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Aspects of Mortality

The Aspects of Mortality

by. Benjamin P. Hawkins (Written: 06/03/2022)

I have solemn spoken on

The Aspects of Life.

How droll and exciting they feel.

How contradictory they are.

How similar they can be.

I have yet to smell the dying roses.

I have yet to climb the smallest trees.

I have yet to light the wickless candle stick.

I have yet to see through the invisible fog.

I have solemn spoken on

The Aspects of Death.

How somber and dream-like they seem.

How combative they have been.

How similar they are seen.

I seek now to feel the warmth of snow.

I seek now to speak the tones of silence.

I seek now to love the the beatless heart. 

I seek now to read the blank pages.

I have solemn spoken on

The Aspects of Nothingness

How chaotic and peaceful it was.

How opposite they were.

How similar they yearned.

I saw then the darkest of stars.

I saw then the shortest infinities.

I saw then the wakeless dream.

I saw then the endless end.

I have sought. I have seen.

Yet, I have solemn spoken.

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Grudge.

Grudge

by. Benjamin P. Hawkins (Written: 05/15/2022)

I.

Am holding a grudge.

Against the jury, the witness,

The plaintiff and judge.

For besmirching my name.

And cursing my blood.

For living a life.

Free of burdens and chains.

That wrench and tighten

And pull me like reigns.

The cold iron nailed to the wall

 that strips my flesh.

Leaving rust in my wounds.

And dust in my jaw.

Vacant eyes of revenge.

Gaze to the floor.

Watching the rats.

Gnaw and climb upon

My skeletal form.

Tendon by tendon.

I rot away.

My arms cannot write.

As my muscles decay.

The chalk is long gone.

As the tally marks mock me.

At least with the roaches.

I won't be lonely.

In this wide open grave.

Befitted with bars.

I seek the sun.

I seek the stars.

I'd hold a grudge.

If I could.

But my mind is gone.

And my nails are wood.

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A poem from the heart that only I understand.

A poem from the heart...that only I understand.

-by Benjamin P. Hawkins (Written: 03/12/2022)

I feel...horrible.

But not for the right reasons.

The Winter Treasons.

The Spring Schemings

The Summer Shearings

And

The Autumn Fall.

Damn. Damn it all. 

The shadows. The penance and curse.

The memories. The doubt. 

The guessing after first.

Mistakes. Mistakes.

A vampire thirst. 

Quenches the days of old and bad. 

The shifted tides and changing land.

I think I'm different than I once was. When I shattered and broke the curio of doves. 

I hope I am. I hope it is.

Not a phantom come to seek vengeance again.

But if it is. I know that I deserve it.

For the dark in the heart of the wandering servant. 

Crawls and claws

Scratching and tearing

At the eyes of the mask

That he is now wearing.

I bear this fate with open arms.

Accepting & Knowing.

I have done harm.

But I hope, this feeling fades.

So for my punishment to soon abate.

For a time at least...until it returns.

In the night with a cause.

And a soul to burn.

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