Sonnet IV: Emergency Food
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Paimon.
Video where I got the idea from: God Paimon | Animation - YouTube
Written On: 5/18/21
Transcript:
I found you drowning in a shallow lake
Lacking in the ability to swim
You could die for a Crab, Ham & Veggie Bake
Wanting to eat fills your days to the brim
You have followed me everywhere I go
Time together on missions long and broad
And though your constellation brightly glows
Are you connected with the unknown god?
Your feet never end up touching the ground
Your name belongs to the ninth king of hell
But with it all, am I real the clown?
If I really fell under your spell
Even so, I hope the help you're giving
Will truly help me find my lost sibling
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